aku kah yang besalah?

Semalam, mr X 'menyerang' aku sbb aku add gf die kt fb...
bertanyekn ape tujuan aku guna acc yg ade gamba ktorg besame n add gf die tu...
hey...i want to show her off who rili u r...
u r such a heart breaker...
mmg intention i sebna nyer nk wat u rase ape yg i rase..
u leave me jz sbb die...
no conrete reason...
i x bole accept that okey!!!
i x slhkn die...die x besalah dlm hal nie...
BUT U ARE, MR X!!!

u mmg x layak utk sesape...
u byk tipu i...n i sgt marah bcz of dis...
tp kesabaran i masih bole membataskn my action...
its good that u know me...
if org lain mungkin da jd lagi trok..

hatiku menangis lagi...

8 nov 2010
semalam aku dpt found out sape pompuan yg aku rs jd perampas mr X ...
semalaman aku x bole tdo memikirkn ttg bende nie...
knape ye...
aku pn x pasti knape...
sedangkn da sebulan ktorg broke up...
tp ternyata cinta dan kasih aku kt dia sgt kuat...

9 nov 2010

aku cube kuatkn diri utk tanye sendri pd mr X..
ternyata sangkaanku btol...
pompuan tu yg rampas die dr aku...
knape la aku butakn hati aku time dgn die dlu...
knape aku kasi 100% kepercayaan kt die...
knape aku begitu bodoh setia pd lelaki...
dan kali nie lukaku menjadi lebih parah...
aku kembali menangis mengenangkn ape yg terjadi...
aku tamau nangis lg...
aku da janji utk jd kwn die..
tp ternyata aku x mampu nk ilangkn rs cinta dan syg aku kt die...

ya Allah...bantulah hambaMu ini...
aku masih blom kuat nk hadapi dugaan ini...
jika benar dia bukan untukku,Kau hilangknlah dia dr ingatankn...


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H8mU3CC3fz4

Liz Phair - Count on my love (No reservations soundtrack)

i went to met my frens yesterday..
it supposed to be a great day for me...it was great to met them and hang out...
but bila ade yg still panggil aku 'anna azly', all the memories popped out of my head...

name tu cm da melekat ngan aku....
same jgk dgn hati aku..
knape ssh sgt ye nk lupe...
ssh sgt nk try accept the fact that we were no longer together...
aku cube kurangkan contact die...dan bejaye...
but ntah la...bile aku x dgr brite dr die aku jd ssh hati...
half of me is still wif him....bring me back my another half...
i still need him...i cant live without him...

ya Allah...makin lame aku sedar walau cmne pn aku cube,die still inside my mind....
cmne pn aku try to get out of these things, he keep limiting me...
like he always did when we were together....
aku x bole syg org lain...
aku x mampu nk kasi hati aku kt org lain....

aku rindu sgt kt die...rindu sgt...
ya Allah....kalau dia untukku,ko bukakanlah hati nya untukku....
kau datangkanlah memori ketika kami bersama kepadanya....
aku mohon padamu....aku x mampu lakukan tanpa bantuanMu,ya Allah...

Faizal Tahir - Hanyut

hope he will realized that im always here for him no matter what....

aduhh...sakit kepalaku....

smlm..b4 nk tdo kepala aku sakit tetibe....
tetibe hati aku rs x sdp ati...then tros msg incik 'x' to ask his condition...
tgk2 die mmg tgh migrain..
mula la aku jd risau...
ntah knape aku mmg sgt risau bile die sakit...
sgt2 risau okey....wlpn die da jd incik X...
tp aku still care psal die...
wlpn cinta tu da semakin pudar...
tp syg aku kt die x pnah luntur...
mungkin jugak disebabkn itu aku still dpt rs kesakitan yg dia tanggung....

incik X.....cpt la sembuh...
sy x boleh kalo awak sakit...
nnt sy ikot sakit...
sy akan sentiasa doakan kesejahteraan awak...
rajin2 mkn ubat ye wak...
kalo awk nk sy teman jumpe doktor,sy akan teman awk..
i'll always here for u, mr X..

something to be remembered...

all the good n bad things that happen to us will remain as memories....
something to be remembered...
something that can make u laugh or cry while thinking of it...
but what ever it is,its a symbol of our love n relationship...
if we are meant together,we will get together..
if not, we will still remain as friends....

awak...
sy pasti akan rindukan perhubungan ini....
tp sy lebih rela melihat awak bahagia....
biarpun tidak dgn sy...
biar sy berkorban utk awak...
semoga satu hari nanti awak akan sedar betapa teguhnya cinta sy utk awak...

~luv u lots~

Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are [Official Video]

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her nails, her nails
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful

And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Day 5

its the fifth day he left me..
i still didn't manage to  forget bout him...
every single seconds he appear on my mind..
what should i do?

hari nie...aku demam yg sgt terok..
all plans tergendala...
i know my family worried bout my changes...
but...this is not what i want...
bkn sengaje aku nk buat mereka risau...
im a bit lost...aku still perlukn dia...
x kisah la seramai mana laki yg dtg,cinta dan syg dlm diri nie just utk dia...
knape ye...org yg setia mesti akan disakiti...
aku takot aku akn berdendam dgn 'lelaki'...
sbb aku pnah jd cmtu...smpi aku jumpe dia..
dia byk ubah hidup aku...
tp knape pas ape yg die da wat tu die tinggalkn aku...
x cukup lg ke kasih syg yg aku kasi kt die...
aku x fhm...
aku x fhm...
aku x fhm...

utk awk..if awk bc blog nie...
awk...sy syg awk sgt...
susah sy nk lepaskn awk...
tp sy akn cuba...
sy nk awak bahagia....
bile awk bahagia sy akn turut rs bahagia....
sy x kisah hidup sorg...
dan mungkin sy akn sorg2 smpi bile2...

awak....kalau awak perlukn sy...
dtglah pd sy...
sy sentiasa ade kt cni utk awak...

Terlerai Kasih - Wann

perkenalan hampir 2 thn yg kuharap hingga ke akhir hayat nmpk nyer jz separuh jalan je...
aku still ssh nk trime lg..wlpn aku tau aku kne wat cmtu...
smpi bile aku nk bersedih...tp aku mmg btol2 sedih skrg...
xde words bole describe kesedihanku skrg...cm dah lost pn ade...
dlm kepale jz ade dia...

awak....
wlpn kte da x besame...sy ttp tanak kehilangan awk...
bialah sy tgk awk bahagia dgn org lain...tp sy harap kte still bole b frens...
awak da byk ubah hidup sy...tp knape awak tinggalkn sy halfway...
sy takot kalo sy jadi sy yg dulu...
sy tanak jd cmtu...
tlg wak...jgn la bia sy cmni sorg...please be myside...x kisah la as ape pn...
tlg la wak...at least smpi sy btol2 kuat nk face bende nie...

awak.....dgr la lagu nie...this will b my pathway...
sy harap awak fhm ape yg sy rs skrg...

bandar sri permaisuri-Air Terjun Chamang-taman layang2-one utama-downtown cheras-bndr sri permaisuri...wat a day....hehe

Plan nyer nk p picnic...tp tatau nk g mn lg...mlm b4 g baru decide nk g mn...mmg adhoc nyer plan la nie...

the day b4 nk g tu tetibe plak aku ley broke up ngan BEKAS incik syg aku...mmg down abes la...

tepikir cm mls je nk join p picnic tu...xde mood kn...

tp last2 g gak atas nasihat cik Jazim...pk2 watpe aku nk seksa diri nangis berbaldi2 sbb laki..

baik la aku enjoy ngan membe2 aku...

n mlm jumaat tu best fren aku AC g dtg fetch aku kt uma...ye lah..nk drive ngan pikiran serabut tu takot gak...kne gak la die amek sbb nk aku join...time kaseh yer cik AC... hehe...

pagi sabtu tu ktorg betolak dr bandar sri permaisuri kol 8 am....smpi sane around 9.30am..

otw nk ke sane tu hampir2 la nk lost...

dgn signage yg x bape nk clear...jln masuk yg sgt scary...mane x nyer...sebelah gaung tu...dgn xde penghadang jalan...jln sempit lg...cuak kalo betembung ngan kete len...

tgk gaye jln nyer pn ktorg da cuak2...tp Alhamdullah smpi gak..

takot la tpt nyer xde org dtg...last2 jumpe tpt parking...nmpak pacik jual beger baru nk bukak kedai...

kalo de org bukak kedai sure de org dtg kn...huhu

kol 9.30am smpi2 je tros startup api nk wat bbq..

dgn xde starter nyer tepakse la ktorg jd survival jap..

bakar la pape yg de....ranting kayu...paper sume...seb baik la x lupe bwk mancis...hehehe

dkt kol 12 baru ramai org dtg...kol 12 tu ktorg da siap mkn sume da...tinggal nk berendam je...

da la pilih bwh jambatan gantung...

gaye cm org nk mandi bunge je,,,,jz bunge nyer je yg x jumpe...huhu

da kol 3 cmtu ktorg da bekemas2 nk blek...ye lah..da lame sgt kt sane...org yg dtg lg lmbt pn da pulang...ktorg je x reti2 nk pulang....huhuh

kol 4.30 cmtu ktorg gerak blek...then singgah kt bentong jap isik perot...huhu

otw nk blek tu p call sorg lg housemate membe aku yg x folo...kot de kt uma kn....skali die kate nk p tmn layang2 kt selayang tu plak...

ktorg ape lg....tros la p sane...mmg main terjah je nie....touch n go cukup..minyak cukup...jalan je....hehehe...

smpi sn da kol 6.00...da petang sgt kot...ramai da yg start blek....tp ktorg je bru nk smpi..huhu...

x p main lelayang pn...p sane nk mkn cekodok yg siti wat je...hahaha...

.siti tu housemate membe aku yg x folo p chamang...hehehe...

p sane..cuci mate jap...then p One Utama plak..punye pjg langkah...gare2 x sempat nk U-turn la nie...hehe...

tp mmg plan nk blie bj tdo pn kt jusco sbb dipakse tdo lg 1 mlm kt uma membe aku tu....tepakse la cr bj tdo...huhuhu


balik dr ou singgah downtown plak..jln2 jap je kt ctu...sbb da pnat sgt masing2...
smpi2 uma masing2 flat....pnat bejalan...tp seronok...
lame x wat girls day out....hilang jap stress..thanx frens....

You

You did it again
You did hurt my heart
I don't know how many times

You I don't know what to say
You've made me so desperately in love
and now you let me down

You said you'd never lie again
You said this time would be so right
But then I found you were lying there by her side

You.. You turn my whole life so blue
Drowning me so deep, I just can reach myself again
You.. Successfully tore myheart
Now it's only pieces
Nothing left but pieces of you

You frustated me with this love
I've been trying to understand
You know i'm trying i'm trying

You.. I don't know what to say
You've made me so desperately in love
And now you let me down




kadang-kadang ape yg kite harapkan x semestinye akan jadi kenyataan...
bercinta xsemestinya memiliki...
tp cinta yg dipupuk akan memberi 1000 kenangan pahit dan manis...
2 tahun menyintainya byk yg telah ku pelajari..
kehidupanku banyak berubah kerananya..
tp ternyata,panas tidak sampai ke petang..
ternyata dia tidak diciptakan untukku..
perpisahan ini sgt menyakitkn utk dilalui...
aku perlukan ketabahan utk lalui saat perit seperti ini...

Ya Allah....aku memohon kepadaMu...
meskipun dia telah sakiti hatiku...
tp jangan Engkau beri kepadanya rasa kekecewaan seperti yg kurasai..
aku juga memohon kepadaMu, temukanlah aku dgn lelaki yg baik yg boleh membimbing aku...

Senyum (Smile) - Malique Feat. Najwa (w/Dual Language Subs)

senyum lah...ternyata senyuman itu mampu membuat orang lain turut tersenyum ;)